When I am on the sidewalk I sometimes wish That a truck would hit me In a tragic accident. Saving me the trouble The guilt The responsibility Of doing it myself. I will do it myself The responsibility The guilt Is too much trouble. What a tragic accident This truck has hit me I sometimes […]
I used to make you feel safe,Encouraged you to share,To trust me.Somewhere along the wayWe switched places:I became the same as everyone else.
I collected the invitations To events I had missed: Weddings, showers, parties All unattended, reply cards unsent. Their photos covered my wall.
I opened my soul to you,Shared my secrets. You listened and smiled,Told you me you were similar.Knowing all the whileYou were not.
I let myself Be drawn in,Relaxed my guard.But yours was still up.
Everything we didEverything we saidEverywhere we wentAll in the past.Now when I see youYour face reminds meOf everything I lost.
Vulnerable,So very vulnerable.And all for what?Connection?Love?I was safer when I buried my heart.
I emerged from the forgeShiny and strong.Everything I loved burned away.